The Evil Americans and Figure Eights of Death

Hehe... OK, so I should TOTALLY be either going to bed or working on my comic or---dangit, studying for geometry. Meh. I followed my friend's example: I don't study for math tests.  I tend to panic if I ever overthink things...especially if subconsciously I know things.

[Oh, man, I really shouldn't (have) but I just ate a chocolate chip cookie...I shouldn't have eaten one this late, but I have 0 self-control...I wanted chocolate.]

Okay, I don't have a lot of time on my hands, and tomorrow is another big day. (One of several, over the next 2 weeks) So, here's my day in a nutshell:

I managed to wear my watch in gym. It was big and bulky. I honestly have no clue how I forgot to take it off, but I did, and I played flickerball with it on...and Mr. F didn't even notice. XD Silly teacher...

I sucked in orchestra. I canNOT play by ear on the first try, no matter what (unless it's open D; not even open A). And I couldn't read the notes; I hate sight-reading. I DON'T CARE IF IT'S WEIRD OR STUPID OR IMPOSSIBLE FOR A VIOLIST MR. M; I DON'T LIKE DOING IT!!!!!!

*Takes breath*

I ate breakfast in division...we had a Substitute Teacher...LOL. That's what our real teacher was dressed up as. It was hilarious.

In Lit, we somehow got onto the topic of Russians (I believe we were discussing how we got to the point of threatening to destroy the world with nuclear weapons by pushing a button--the RED button!!) And Mr. M (II) was saying how young American children would say "the Evil Russians" while young Russian children would say "the Evil Americans," and yet we're so similar. That's it.

CHEM was FUN. I got to hold fire in my hand...and I didn't burn myself!!! So cool; I'm glad I worked up the courage to do it; I got to have a rare experience (although I wonder what would have happened if someone DID burn theselves...Mr. B'd be responsible...)

Spanish.... I do NOT like my student teacher. He's creepy. I feel like...I don't know, he's out to get me or something; win my favor. He always singles me out on the randomest things...like today. Out of nowhere, while we were doing the work he just assigned us, he walked down my aisle and stopped next to my desk, looking at me (I just know it; I was looking at my paper) while I was wishing repeatedly really hard in my head for him to go away; I knew he was coming for me. Anyway, he tried to strike up a conversation about my Halloween costume; I answered quasi-curtly; I just wanted him to be on his way. He left, his last remark saying how he was betting that I'd be an anime character. I don't talk to that guy; I don't KNOW him; How does he know me enough to bet how I'd dress for Hallow's Eve?

Another example: in September, he wouldn't leave me alone about my paper hats; he thought it was a dunce cap at first. Then the next day he told me he knew it was my origami hat, which I for some reason doubt. He's... IDK. I hope he's not a creeper. Sorry, Señor, but I am NOT gonna let you get close to me. I prefer Señora S. So, Imma be:

Short, sweet, straight to the point, oblique, and very vague. (©Me; I was bored one day)

WS: meh. Weird lady for sub. AFTER world was interesting; I was parading around in an Akatsuki cloak, courtesy of Adam. He wanted to go to Flag tryouts with me...but I had to change into my casual clothes, that took a while, then HE had to go to his locker...and we were late. Together tho, so it didn't really matter. I had to help him get the hang of doing figure eights with the flag, but I was easily distracted. Hehehe...According to him, it's NOT a "figure eight." (It's really an infinity symbol). Whatevs. He's just angry he couldn't understand it as easily...

LOL. Here: there are two things in Adam's life--*Shuttup!!*:

1. Things that confuse him, and
2. Things that piss him off.

XD I'm teetering between the two right now, no doubt...But I'm glad he's my friend.

Tomodachi deeesu~!! 

(No time to spell check; revise it later)


TrinnBloom OUT.

[Random] Journal Entry VIII

Ok, this post is gonna be as random as heck...I mean, I'm sleepy and should technically be working on....something. ANYthing. But I'm not. I wonder if that smiley'll work here...meh. If not, you'll be seeing some "<jpg. 0XX?>" instead. Too bad.

Anyway, I started reading this manga, "Gakuen Alice", and I've fallen in love with it...I think it's a shoujo, but it can very well be a kodomo manga, just because of the characters. I love all of the characters; I'll start referring to them by either the nicknames given to them in the manga, or my own nickynames. So, I like:

• Mikan [Sakura] (Mik-chan? Mikkan? I don't have one yet....) she's a sweet, naïve 10-year-old (at this point) who is liable to snap at any moment and cuss out anyone who pisses her off. Honestly, she reminds me of Tohru Honda...except she gets angry.

• Hotaru [Imai] (Taru{?} Hota-chan{?}) meh...not the girls so much. Pet names are much more fun for boys.  Hota-chan is a nonchalant genius inventor who really does care...somewhere...deep down.

• Natsume [Hyuuga] (Naa-chan, Natsu) he's bad-tempered, super-talented, and has the same last name as the cousins Neji and Hinata in Naruto™. C'mon. I think he also just hates being an Alice...and a destructive-powered one at that. Doesn't he know that he can control how his Alice affects others? Either he'll change his attitude about it, or Mikkan will use her Alice to nullify his...oops.

• Luca (Ruka) [Nogi] (Ruu-kun, Ruka, Ruka-pyon) I love him, he's so adorable. He's an animal lover, but he doesn't show it. He suffers for the sake of his best friend Natsu, because he suffers more. He is cool and calm on the outside, but he's truly a little kid on the inside. ^^

• Yuu [Tobita] (Yuu-chan, Class Rep, or simply Yuu, most likely) he's really sweet...and probably has a crush on Mikan. And he has the ability ("Alice") to create illusions, a power I give one of my own charas...

• Narumi-sensei (aka Mr. Narumi) (Naru; Naru-sensei) He's a pretty man...with a pheromone Alice to match. XD I love him, ever since his debut, but he obviously has an ulterior motive.

Speaking of ulterior motives, why the heck did Natsu take off Mikkan's underwear??? (It made for a funny follow-up scene, tho).

Looking back at the charas and what I think of them, this manga is very similar to "Fruits Basket." 

• Mikan=Tohru.
• Hotaru=Hana-chan (Hanashima)
• Natsume=Kyo (!!)
• Luca=Yuki (kinda)
• Yuu=...Mitchi? (Momiji)
• Narumi-sensei=Shigure
• bratty Natsu/Luca fangirl=Yuki fanclub president

The only thing(s) that are messing up the flow: Mikan (Tohru) needs a yankee/delinquent friend as well, I didn't know who Yuu could be (sorry, Yuu-chan), and Luka as Yuki wouldn't have been Natsume's best friend. But man, Naru-sensei is just like Gure-san.

Here's a treat: my first pic upload. So, Mikkan and Hota-chan and Yuu were in the forest no one is supposed to enter, and this mutant chick raised by the middle-schoolers was loose, and the middle-schoolers were like, "Where could he be?" I snapped this:

Screenshot of page from Mangareader.net

Man, sooooo funny. And here's an example of Luca-pyon's animal love...:
(Note: with manga, you read from right to left  [««])

courtesy of Mangareader.net; emblem in lower right corner

XD O man...Luca...So affectionate. Oh boy...Their FACES. *collapses into giggles*

Okay...I should really stop and go work on my mask...later!!

[New Label to look for: Alice Update]

The Wonder of: Toilets

Quote of the day: "[There's] no use stewing over [something like] rock."

Word of the day: halcyon (pronounced "HAL-see-un")

Yes, the words "toilets" and "wonder" are used in the same title up there. I started wondering about stuff… But first, formalities:

I made up the quote while coming home; I was thinking about how I hold on to things--no matter how petty--for ages. Mom says I have a memory like an elephant; I never forget. Which is a misleading statement; I remember all trivial things and nothing important, but I digress.

I recalled a part of the book Forged by Fire that talked about the main character's great aunt or grandma, saying that she always faced challenges the same way: "first with a sigh, then a smile." And she said at some point that there's no use stewing over….erm, something. I took her attitude and tweaked her words a bit, and I decided to myself above motto.

Here's how I interpreted it: There is little to no purpose in stewing something like rock. Like, you can't stew rocks. You can, but there's really no point, unless you're getting minerals from them or something. Hehehe…So, there is no point in worrying about something that is set in stone or cannot be changed. *teehee*

The word came from my new unit 2 vocabulary. Haha. I had to do these assignments in my vocab book, and my fave word by far is "halcyon." It has multiple meanings. As an adjective, it is "of or relating to the halcyon; calm, peaceful; happy, golden; prosperous." A halcyon, however, is a mythical bird apparently similar to the kingfisher, "said by ancient writers to breed in a nest floating at sea at the winter solstice, charming the wind and waves into calm." So, yeah, it basically has to do with being calm. I like this word a lot. I think I'll use it in one of my many nonexistent stories…maybe there'll be a halcyon, or maybe it'll be a name…

A majority of this post is actually about me wondering about toilets, but the rest of my day follows up afterwards, if you want.

Some of My Many Problems

"There was a little boy eating a Pop-Tart on the bus yesterday. Then he got thirsty and started screaming 'Juice'."

LOL. My schoolmate told me that today. If you don't really find it funny, you had to be there. She said it in this even, nonchalant tone of reminiscence. It was hilarious when she said it. To me, anyway.

So, I noticed that I tend to "multi-task," and as such I tend to not get much done. I have about two weeks to finish a comic book I just started today (one panel. OOOOOO), and I also want to draw something for my friend, whose birthday is tomorrow. She asked me if I knew what day was tomorrow, and of course I knew. Seriously; I wrote it down, IN CASE I forgot. But I was all difficult about it, saying something along the lines of: "Yes, I know what tomorrow is. But don't tell me what it is, and I won't tell you what I think it is." I know tomorrow's her birthday, and I want(ed) to draw a picture for her, but she took forever in getting me the picture/details/info I needed, so IDK if I can do it... BUT I SHALL TRY!!!

Things I see as my issues:

1. I am very indecisive
2. I procrastinate
3. I do not have a lot of self-confidence
4. I have a dark evil cynical sadistic part
5. I have a gloomy depressed part
6. I'm "too nice"
7. oh, and my time management sucks

Yeah. I A) wanna finish my comic, if I can; if not, it's a boring old essay ( I have to do for the project)...B) want to draw that picture, C) want to dance in this show in May, yet D) have little confidence that I can get into any of the dances, E) surely have some dark feelings or ideas about the dances and my current issues, F) wanna practice glow sticks, G) practice in general, and H) sleep. I think had more, but the thought of the show and tryouts distracted me. So, oh well.

My friend thinks I can do the comic, regardless of the time limit and the size of the book. I need to believe in myself too...I could do it....I CAN do it.

...

You know, if I started again RIGHT NOW.

But at least I got that first panel. I know from experience that if I just get one thing accomplished when---*ooo~, thunderstorm!! ^-^*--- working on something, I'm good to go. Like, I'll get on it. Kinda like a extremely precariously balanced boulder on a cliff. All I have to do it touch it, and it'll start rolling. All I need is my name on a paper to get in the groove...for at least 1-1/2 hours. 

OK. My eyes are starting to beg for mercy. 

BTW: Today I am 10¢ richer!! Stina found a dime at lunch, and was disappointed that I was not wearing my boots with the little pockets in the sides. So, she put it in my laces. That was at...12:35-ish? She told me that it had BETTER be there tomorrow...And...*checks shoe* It is (still there)!!  Awesommeness!!!

Today was a good day (freaked out my History teacher a bit).

Listening to: "Kokoro [x Kiseki]" by Rin & Len Kagamine (Kagamine Rin, Kagamine Len)

Currently plotting: how to shorten my comic book...somehow.

Trying to finish: the comic, now that it's started. And the picture-present, which has yet to be started.

GO ME~!!

[Random] Journal Entry VII

Skipping the quote of the day and such, no time. And nothing for that particular department. I shall give a sorta brief description of my day of AWESOMME.

First: PE. We didn't have to go out, because it had rained the night before, and it was wet outside. ("Did you hear the thunderstorm last night?" asks SO. "What storm?" asks I.) So we picked teams for the next couple of weeks or so, and I was actually picked--not last. I know that sounds something reminiscent of nerditude from the cliché movies of high school in the 80s or something, but yeah, I was happy. I wasn't the first choice, but I was the middle person on the second team out of six team captains. What really got me was the fact that the captain called me by my shortened name, which I did not expect. (My classmates pay more attention than I thought...) I felt even happier, and it got even better when one of my better teammates passed me the ball a few times, AND I made a basket. OH YEAH!! *Chanarra~!*

After that...um, work was easy. I got 110 outta 100 on my math quiz, AND it counted as a double quiz, and I got a candy bar, which I shared with my friends. And in chemistry I have over 100% because I got extra credit on my test somehow....maybe the puzzle activity from earlier??? Who cares. I am now acing the class, as opposed to when I had a B.

My pal got a haircut over the weekend, and I kinda freaked. I was like "is that...? Nope." then "Wait, is that...?" and yes, yes it was. So I followed him, and I saw it was him, and his hair was short. And I probably looked like one of the overly-dramatic girls from manga or something once I realized it...I looked for the perfect face for it on this one manga, but it took too long, and I still didn't find it; I'll have to like, reread the whole manga or something. If I find it and find the time, maybe I'll edit this post and insert the pic.

*Later* Oh, RIGHT!!! I wanted to tell everyone how nice I was today...On the train ride home, I was tired of the continuous sound of the car door opening and closing, opening and closing, so I reached up and pulled it open, and I help it open for all of the late arrivals who were trying to get to the cars further up front. I held it open, and there were at least 2 benefits:

1. I was building muscle in my right arm, and
2. I got at least 25 "thank you"s/"thanks"s. It felt so great. 

I'm telling you, being nice has its own rewards. Cliché, I know, but I truly felt good whenever any of the passengers going through glanced at me and said "Thank you." It was a nice experience, and I might do it again, Time and Destiny willing, if I ever get the chance. *Reminisces in the feeling of those 5 or so minutes of door-holding*

Meh. I'm getting sleepy, and I'm sure I'll get an earful if I stay on, soooo...

Bye.

Listening to: "Su-su Suki Daisuki" by Rin Kagamine
Currently plotting: comic book layout. > . > Not as easy as I'd thought; and I have less time than I thought.
Trying to finish: Erm...train of thought?

Mochiko and Lazy Peeps with Leaf Blowers

Mmm....I just had mochiko Pilipino style, and YUM. Muy delicioso. It think it's my new fave Pilipino food. I heard the name, and I immediately thought of the mochiko used in Japanese foods, since yesterday I was looking up Pucca on wiki, and one thing lead to another...anyway, mochiko is this gooey thing made with sweet rice flour, like in Japanese dango, or mochi, which I made last year at the pastry club. I like mochi...I think I'll name a character "Mochiko." The mochiko I ate is made up of rice flour and langka, or jackfruit. *blisses out*

That, and people these days...I was doing my hair when I happened to stare out the window (a bad habit of mine) and see this guy with a leaf blower across the street. Now, I know that 'tis the season and all that to clean out your lawn and such, but man, are people getting lazy. So, first thing wrong: those people across the street most likely hired that dude to clear leaves from their lawn. Now, I could be wrong, but I assumed that (oop; Dad says to never assume). The next thing that was messed up (to me, anyway) was the fact that this guy was using a leaf blower to clear leaves from the grass.

The grass. Really? I'm used to people using leaf blowers to clear things like sidewalks or hard-to-reach places, where rakes can't do the job. I have grown up with the tradition of "raking the leaves" during the fall. And after most of them have fallen down, no less. This guy was out blowing leaves at the very beginning of autumn, when all the trees still have their leaves. So, yeah, I'd rake the leaves from the grass rather than use a leaf blower, dunt-duh-dunt.

Another problem: I got the feeling that guy wasn't even really into it. He probably just wanted to get paid or whatever. I mean, he started blowing the leaves in the street. The ones that were just sitting there and minding their own business. He blew them around like they were in the way...It made NO. SENSE. I'm sorry, but anyone who paid that guy to clear out their yard, and he gave them an hourly rate or something, they were getting ripped off. That was, like, a 15 minute job.

...I still can't believe he did the ones in the street...

In conclusion, the things that were just plain SAD:

• My neighbors [probably] hired some guy to get the leaves out of their own yard. Too lazy to do it themselves?
• The guy clearing leaves was using a leaf blower in the grass. And countered his progress by blowing the leaves back in the way.
• He used the leaf blower on the leaves in the street.

Yeah, I should prob. practice for that playing quiz tomorrow...O.O And I should also start that comic...d@mµ.

[Edit] I just watched the new opening for Naruto Shippuden (finally!! It's about time they got a new one), and all I can say is...WHAT THE BLOODY HE££?!!?! There was some THREE-HAND SIGN-WEAVING going on, and it just blew my mind. I feel like they're just gonna have this whole season based on fillers...great.

Listening to: "Up With the Birds" by Coldplay (free song listen-to a day on iTunes!! 'til the album comes out)
Currently plotting: how to tackle that comic and whether or not I should practice.
Trying to finish: the comic so there's nothing to worry about...

A++ (Naruto spoiler alert)

The first thing I have to say is:

OMG MADARA SUMMONED A FRICKIN' METEORA!!

Yeaaaa....just got caught up on my Naruto manga, and it. Was. EPIC. Not nearly as epic as it would have been if they made longer excerpts...say, 20 legit pages, NOT ads and fanart? But, wow...who woulda guessed Kabuto's trump card was...? Man. The things he does...I wonder who he's under (I love this whole "always another mastermind" plot going on.

Anyway, back to by delayed reports on my daily life:

Oct. 18 to 20-…
     Word/quote of the day-ßßß
     Ms. Lost-and-Found-∞∞∞
     Change Counter-§§§
     Etc.-∆∆∆


Today-†††
     Quote/word of the day-ßßß
     A++-ΩΩΩ
     My Indestructible Water Bottle-µµµ
     Etc.-∆∆∆

*RANT* [Random] Journal Entry VI

AAAAAAGH!! The work never ceases.  I hate staring at the computer for so long on NOT FUN stuff. Sorry, but I cannot post about my day and previous days--not in detail, anyway. My eyes---my poor, poor eyes--are begging to sleep, and I still want to practice that piece for music class. But here are some things I need to get out there:

1. World Studies. I greatly dislike that class. I had to do this mock research on the Middle East--and Mr. T says there are 20 countries (after telling us 13) when there should be 22 (Libya, Egypt)--and I only have 21 of the countries!!! Why???!?! I even included Bahrain, and it's super-tiny on the map. Couldn't even find it. But out of respect for the country, I put down the desired info anyway. I'M STILL MISSING A COUNTRY!!! Altho it could have to do with the fact that worldatlas.com counted Israel AND Palestine...even though they are apparently the same country, a fact I did not know until yesterday. XP
2. I'm feeling good about this map quiz coming up.
3. I found 35¢ in the locker room today!! Yes!!!
4. meh. random crap and thoughts that were accumulating in mine mind, but they're gone now. Shy little things, they are.

Here's a little found poem I wrote during note-taking:

"The Bond"

My job is to

take care of you. 

I was appointed to do that

by God.

I will kill

anyone

who touches you.

Do you understand?

It's from The Road, btw. Great book, so far. I recommend it. (^ - ^)

PS: You know, my perception of time is totally messed up right now? I had no idea that today was the 20th, nor did I realize that it has been two days since my last post. MAN, I need to sleep. 'Bye.

Listening to: "Wash Over Me" by Kavin Hoo, Piano for Stress Relief (exactly what I need right now. XD)

Currently plotting: um, can't tell; shy thoughts; jumbled.

Trying to finish: practicing that piece.

[Random] Journal Entry V

Gah! Latelatelate. I just finished a paper, so I'll report the happenings of today, tomorrow. I am SOOOOO sleepy right now (I spelled it "ritght" the first time). I'll just tell you that:

• today I am yet again Ms. Lost-and-Found, 

          and

• I did not have to pay $5.

Stay tuned to find out what the bloody he££ I'm talking about!!! *sleep-drunk grogginess* 

...

......

zzz...

[Random] Journal Entry IV

Quote of the day: "That's the book I never read."

OK, so, I've simmered down, but earlier I was a angry-slash-sad mess because of the series of unfortunate events that occurred, so to speak.

We stayed after school, which was not unusual, due to our various clubs and such, but then we stayed after school. Longer. For a game. I told him, "Ok, we'll leave at a quarter to 6 to catch the train," and he agreed-ish. But then it became ten minutes to 6, then five. And he was still there, waiting for the last girl to guess what was written on the note on her forehead. Even though he had already gotten out of the game. Then, at the corner of the school campus, I realized that, although normally we would be able to most likely make the train in fifteen minutes (despite the fact I was carrying my viola), today we had to get our tickets, and that would take extra time.

Therefore, as such, AND in conclusion, we would have to make the even later train after that, the 6:58. Ugh. I also had to find someone who could give me change for a larger bill, and that would take even more extra time.

[yaddahyaddahyadda, fast forward in time] So, upon approaching the ticket teller, I asked for the reduced student fee and asked if the teller needed to see my ID. She said yes, so I shoved my hand into my purse and dug around for my ID. Not finding it and slightly panicking, I crouched down and searched more thoroughly, spreading the search to my bag. After 45 seconds or so or frantic pawing, triple-checking, and mental swearing, I popped up and admitted I could not find it. Luckily, she still gave me the discount, as well as a warning.

Soo, yeah. I lost my ID, which I only need to, oh, get in the building and get my food. And it costs me 5 bucks to get a new one. That. Sucks. Like a sick person on a cough drop.

Gosh. I think I'm more upset about the fact that Significant Other lost my pass of Awesommeness; allow me to explain. Last year, my totally fantastic art teacher would have to frequently sign passes for my division teacher to excuse my lateness, as I always stayed behind to clean up in art. He was one who didn't put the time or date on his passes, which was required to be a legit pass. I have one that I didn't need to use because my division teacher was late that day. So, I kept it in my ID case as a trophy of sorts. That last undated, untimed pass in the school. I could technically use it at any time for any class. I had it always; I even wore a hole in the middle of it (due to the shape of the case) and laminated it with tape to preserve its Awesomme. I transferred it to my new ID's case this year, and the habit continued. Except today I was practicing glowsticks tricks and I decided to take out the pass (*gasp!*) since SO took his CTA card out of his case, which I was using as my second pseudo-glowstick. I gave it to him, telling him distinctly to not lose it. Then, after my ID fiasco, I asked if he AT LEAST had my pass, and he looked at me and told me that he gave it to me; something I do not recall.

So, yeah, I blame him, but I also cannot rely on my memory, which is spazzing out due to my shock of losing my ID. I could have gotten the pass back and put it in my case, and SO could have been sadly mistaken, which is backed by the fact that he cannot tell me exactly when he gave me the slip of paper ("When?" I ask. "When you came over," he says. "WHEN? I came over to you a lot," I press. "I DON'T KNOW; I GAVE IT TO YOU." [*flustered/irritated*] sure, bro; I'll just have to take your word for it, then). I guess I'll never know, though, because~

I LOST MY FRICKIN' ID. CASE INCLUDED.

The plus sides of today: I got candy for passing my math quiz (yes, I am bribed), I got to see these people (then just this one guy) mess with the lighting and stuff for the school play--LOL, I think I weirded him out when I told him I was just watching when he found me XD--and...tomorrow, if my ID is still lost, I will get to see a new one be brought into being (via the awesome machine) when I ask the Dean for a new ID (and pay him $5...*SOB*)

Oh, right, the quote came from my quasi-lunch-buddy Helen, who said above quote during a conversation about some book. The book she never read in her English class.

PS: I did complete that flyer for my friends...this morning. In the car. On the way to school. And they liked it, so that's all that matters.

Listening to: "White & Nerdy" by "Weird Al" Yankovich
Currently plotting: my homework...*sobs*
Trying to finish: da dishes. XD

[Random] Journal Entry III

Quote of the Day: "Me and my wrong-ass tongue."

Yo. I had to do homework today, and--CRAP! they wanted a flyer to be drawn, too....--I just finished. And grabbed a brownie bit (jealous?). The quote came from a SO today, when told by my sister that their tongue had been trained wrong (LOL, we were talking about how to pronounce sounds correctly, and how the "K" and "G" sounds were "guttural"). And, yeah. That's it.

I was told today by the same SO how I was too nice...(they didn't want to say "naïve"--that's what they told me) to go out into the world...which I already knew. I know I'm too trusting and naïve to think that everyone's nice and reasonable in the world. I'm trying to work on it, but not too hard. I mean, I want to give people the benefit of the doubt, but unfortunately that'll get me killed in today's world. Man, I don't really like living in this time...the only plus sides are manga and anime and candy. (*Yum~*)

*Ahem* Anyway, about my naiveté. I was raised in a relatively sheltered way, and I think that's good. I'm not some gangbanger in the streets or some smart-mouthed student in school that is constantly in trouble...I think. XD The down side is how I grew up deciding to not care about news and current events and politics and stuff like that. I also don't know a lot of things people talk about when they're complaining about the economy or...um, something (nothing else comes to mind...oh!) like crimes and crap. Yeah, I don't know and I don't care, but I have sculpted myself into an ignorant person who will most likely be taken advantage of if I don't get all cynical like I do at home (NO one's nice at home...everyone's against me XD).

I DO have this side of my that's like, shrouded in darkness, which I guess no one really knows about. I'm like Sakura Haruno in Naruto™, if you know who I'm talkin' about. (If you don't, get some Uzumaki Naruto in your life) If you do, I'm referring to the Sakura in the first part of Naruto, when she was weak and "sweet" on the outside and she had a kick-ass (hrm, an actual term in da diccionario) alter-ego who was dubbed "Inner Sakura." LOL, her reaction to everything was "Cha!!! I'm gonna kick someone's a$$!!" Anywayz, I'm kinda like that. I think that's the slightly passive aggressive part of me. I act agreeable or deadpan or slightly upset, and on the inside I'm chanting "I wanna hurt somebody, I wanna hit something..." I also think very negative thoughts about people when I'm angry, and nobody's the wiser....mwahahahahaa~ >=D

Yeea...I have to clench my fist or bite my finger or something whenever I'm ticked...But I doubt I'm as vicious as other people. I mean, I wouldn't kill or attack anyone...I have no weapons or martial arts training. XD

That reminds me...

Pondrance: Why DO people kill others, or themselves? I don't get it at all. Killing is stupid, so I'm guessing those who kill people are idiots. Even punishment for a crime; I dislike killing (oop, there ya go--example of my naiveté), and I am also slightly sadistic, so I think punishing criminals by letting them live is much better. Just make their lives a living Hell...hehehe. I want them to live...so they can SUFFER. Just don't kill people off. We're dying off fast enough as it is (I hear we are the first generation to have a regressing lifespan).


And that brings me to:
Random Question (aka Second Pondrance): Is it possible that some un-scientific phenomena like Fate or Destiny or Karma or something is slowly killing off the human race because of our ambitions, stupidity, and cruelty through sickness, war, economic problems, global warming, decreasing lifespans, etc.? Interesting...(something to entertain my thoughts for the next day or so)

Listening to: "Don't Stay" by Linkin Park
Currently plotting: that flyer my friends wanted by tomorrow (oops...) I'll get it done. 
Trying to finish: said flyer.

45¢ Richer

Quote/Convo of the day: "You touched me! You touched me!!" --"Yeah, and I'm starting to regret it now."

Word [terms] of the day: Botch batch; sig figs

Today I am: 45¢ richer, $1 poorer

HOMECOMING GAME!!!! All right!!! We didn't win...WE OWNED THEM!!! 28 - 8!!! That is how we DO.

Today was cool. Half-day @ school, homecoming game, I went there with a group of pals, I got to play with the bow on the strings of my viola, got money...etc.

First: quote was from me, after being hugged by my friend who has touching issues (does not like people touching them) which I understand, 'cuz I also don't like others touching me...yet I have no problem touching them (another example of my hypocrisy). They hugged our mutual pal and then me, and I got happy. Then they said that they were starting to regret the hug. XD 

The terms describe two things, and they happen to have a nice flow (like things in a tongue-twister). Today SO gave me 20 or so cupcakes that they deemed messed up/failures. I was to give them away to peeps at school. I referred to them as "botched" when talking to classmates, and I knew that I had approx. 2 batches of cuppies, so I dubbed the failed cupcakes the "botch[ed] batch." (^ - ^) In science we were going over significant figures, and I automatically made a connection 'tween significant and figures. I'm pretty sure I'm not the first to come up with that correlation. Anyway, I legit wrote that as the title in my notes: "Sig Figs."

HOMECOMING:

I went there (home stadium) with a group of people via public transport, and it was fun. At first we didn't know which way to walk after we got off the train, as some (like 2) people looking like our schoolmates were going one direction while there's this flood of orange heading south. *HMMMMMM...* So, we went with the flow. When we passed a Subway, some people broke off of the stream of kids ahead of us, and we kept walking...

When we hit McDONALD'S, everyone headed inside. I told the group: "I think the people we're following are just going for food." Which they were. But we all went in, and---Let's just say, that McDonald's made a LOT of *cha-ching* today. XD We ate in the parking lot (all of us from the school) since the stadium doesn't allow outside food so they can sell us outrageously priced stuff.

However, we needed to get in soon, since the game started in 5 minutes. So, we scarfed what we could and JoLT and I wanted to attempt to smuggle our food in. We got to the gates, and we were let in...I had a McDouble, and he had a wrap and McFlurry. A McFLURRY. We're just that ninja. I mean, come on. At McD's I got...two sandwiches, a small fries, and a large drink for $4.40. Last year, I think I mooched off some nachos from my friend, and those prob. cost 3 bucks for some chips and cheese that barely satisfied one person. 3$ nachos...$4 meal. The choice was obvious.

During the game, I lost one of the three balloons I snagged from the earlier pep rally (jerkface stepped on it and didn't even say sorry ), and the same people somehow got 2 pieces of gum on me (UNchewed, don't worry); one in my hair and one on my lap. I picked up a third on the bleacher row in front of me.

I also found MONEY. The jerkfaces behind me who were too lazy to stand themselves when the kids in front stood started throwing stuff (pennies; Freshmen Hell Week) at said kids. I started picking up the pennies, and after the game (WHOOOOO!!) I started to pick up random change, along with JoLT. We actually started to compete for coins. XD Before the everyone left, I noticed (amongst the coins thrown at those in front) something silvery and shiny. I looked for it and found...a DIME!! *Picks up* I guestimated the amount of change I'd found, and I correctly guessed 20¢. Then, at the station, another lazy person dropped a quarter, looked at it, and went on his way. A quarter. He££, that's 25¢. That's a down payment on overpriced vending machine food ($1.15 for a pack of Skittles®, M&M's ®, or any other candy bar). So, I picked it up. Hence, I am 45¢ richer today.

I found 45¢ today (I'll start keeping track when I can).

Yep...today was fun. This is what I live for...altho I was dead in the pep rally.

Listening to: Music. Too lazy to check it.
Currently plotting: what to do: HW or draw?
Trying to finish: math homework.

[Random] Journal Entry II

*OMG that is so cool the way the option buttons light up when I hit tab (^ - ^) [while working on post]*

Mmeh. Random entry...you know this IS a web journal. Duy. Anyways, I liked today. It wasn't overly awesome or exciting; nor terrible, or sucky, or terribly sucky; and yet it wasn't normal per se. As SO (Significant Other) put it, it was better than average. I quite like days like today. I didn't have a lot of homework, and I wanna draw. And so I shall. Xp

Before I leave, tho, I wanted to ponder a bit about something I always wondered about:

Pondrance: If "horrible" is to "terrible" and "horrify" is to "terrify," how come "terrific" is not to "horrific?" I mean, why is it that "horrible" and "terrible" = really really bad or awful, "horrify" and "terrify" = to scare the $#!+ outta somebody (scary), but "horrific" = really frightening and "terrific" = awesome or fantastic???? WTBH is that about??? Another reason why everyone thinks English is messed up.

[In bullet format!!]:

• horrible:terrible
• horrify:terrify
• horrific≠terrific

Huh. I often wondered about that. ¡¡Jaa ne!!

Listening to: "Rockstar 101" by Rihanna

Currently plotting: 2-4 pictures I WANT to draw or sketch

Trying to finish: um. Practicing?

iCry as Promised

"iCry," by TrinnBloom ©2011

I bury my face in your shoulder

My tears drenching the sleeve

I claw and clutch the cloth on your body

I hug you hard and weep

I cry the tears of a million sorrows

Of guilt and fear and strife

I cry the tears of all the things

That weigh me down in life

The mistakes and humiliation

The sadness, pain, regret

All the things I wish I could

Make myself forget

All my pent-up thoughts and emotions

My terror, hate and grief

I let them out and cry against you

Seeking solace and relief

I cry about the things I’ve done

About the things I’ve seen

I cry about when I stood by

When I could have done something

I cry because my mind thinks

Thoughts that make me an offender

I cry because I recall

Things I’d rather not remember

I cry because I know things

That other people never knew

I cry because of all the things

That I’ve had to go through

I cry because I’m speechless

All my thoughts racing through my head

I cry because I’m thankful

You understand what is unsaid

Slowly you draw your arms around me

And I don’t know why

But something new wells up within me

And again I start to cry

Caprice and Piñata Problems

Quote of the day: "She broke up with him, because of the piñata problem."

Word of the day: Caprice (pronounced "kuh-prees")

LOLZ. Good mood. May'aps a short post (relatively). Today started out good and funny (piñata), sucked near the later morning, and got better soon after. Here:

Quote of the day (and reason why I'll never look @ or hear "piñata" the same--EVER.). I was listening to the Eric and Kathy show on the radio, and they were talking about this lady who broke up with her significant other because of..."piñata problems". Yes, that is slang/codewords for something specific, but I shall not go into details here. Anyway, I caught on immediately, and it was hilarious the way the hosts kept messing with the term. Man, oh man..."Piñata..." *snicker* Here's a hint: it's a certain something that...um, no, that'd give it away. It's a thing. Figure it out.

The word of the day is actually apparently a model of car. I think. It blatantly read "CAPRICE" on the side of the car, so I'm assuming... Anyway, I know it's a word too, and it is "a sudden and unaccountable change of mood or behavior." It is also is another term for capriccio, which is a music thang. The former relates to me more. XD

Yeah, more about me. I do indeed suffer from mood swings (said caprices). Like today; I went from cheerful to depressed (d@mµ those tests) to grumpy (leftovers from the depression) to happy again. And often I take it out on the people around me..in a sorta passive aggressive way. JoLT says that no, I am not passive aggressive; he's seen me angry, and I get violent. That is true, but I also tend to hide my emotions--sometimes--and act in a poisonous manner. XP My apologies, friends from school and life; I do not do it on purpose.

After crappy testing, I had to attend half of my classes, and ¡¡No tarea!! so, yeah, that made it a little better. Then we all went to get food, and the nice guy at the pizza place gave us a sweet deal. Then I got the gang cookies from the subway next door. XD Then we walked to the cool park and ate. It was fun...

I should: draw. Whatever. Just draw. I also feel like treating you guys to my poem I told you about that other, sad post. So, that's...above. XP ("iCry"; remember, ©Me)

Listening to: "Empire State of Mind" by Jay-Z
Currently plotting: my drawings of random awesommeness
Trying to finish: NADA!! Nothing to do!! Hahahahahaahahaha~!

Circular Rainbows and Ms. Lost-and-Found

Quote/Convo of the day: "Sounds like someone's pregnant." -- "Or in the hospital"

Word of the day: ghoti (Pronounced "fish")  XD

Hehe....Yeah, I was Ms. Lost-and-Found today-- in a GOOD way, never you worry. I actually just finished my spanish assignment whilst eating Ritz® crackers and a Granny Smith apple--that's NOT some freaky talking fruit named Frank (why would you want to eat something that talks to you?). No, my apple had no name. Isn't online homework the stupidest thing ever? I dislike assignments on the computer.

[Edit: Another long un; here's the key]:

• Quote/Word of day-ßßß
• Ms. Lost-and-Found-∞∞∞
• Circular Rainbows-§§§
• Etc.-∆∆∆

Journal Entry I

Okay, so..Imma skip alla that stuff I usually put at the top of my posts, because it slows me down. Sometimes, like now, I just wanna get my thoughts out there.

Today...was OK, and ONLY OK. It was "meh" by gym, and made better by my awesomme music teacher, Mr. M, who gave me a piece of chocolate. Hmm...was it Fannie May's? *Looks up term to find correct spelling* LOL, you know that if you just change the "y" in May to an "e," it's a mortgage/housing business or something (as opposed to the candy business we all love)?  That's weird. Anyway, I got free chocolate, and that was prob my highlight. That, and the fact that I got more extra cred in my math class. YES!!! *Crap that reminds me that I have a quiz mañana.* NO!!!!

Lit...we managed to finish watching the Crucible, and let me say, what happened to Proctor was messed. Up. I think I'm a lot like Proctor (not counting his awesomme calligraphy). Mainly, I try to look out for others and do what's best for them (what I think is best...). However, I'm also a hypocrite. I'm not afraid to say it here, as long as no one brings it up in real life. But yes, I amz un hypocrite. I scold people for their actions then do the same things they do/did. So sad...

After lunch, I had chem, and Mr. B was not there, so the class goofed off and pulled the curtains and closed the door and such, and then my ex-Bio teacher comes in, Mr. K; he was our sub. He's one of my fave teachers, and I love him (not LOVE love, that admiration/"he's-so-cool-and-funny"/I love him as a person thing). He was hilarious (or hilar, according to my classmate) today, and he called me back at the end of class. He asked me a question that, looking back with my over-thinking and hypersensitivity, stung and still kinda stings:

"Why are you here?"

I took no offense and did not mull over it at the time, him referring to my being placed in a regulars class when I was in his honors class last year. But I told him that I tried to get out of doing a project--"What!?" said he--and that by the time I realized that the classes were about the same; it didn't matter--"Yeah."--I was already in the class. As he walked with me out of the classroom, he told me:

"Yeah, this really isn't the best environment for you."

That...hurt. I took it as a compliment, because (I think) it meant he was looking out for me and he regarded me as an intelligent student. But, I also heard it as a sort of "I'm disappointed in you" kind of thing, and that pained me. I guess I tried to make up for my failure by telling him that I was going to take Honors Physics next year, which is true, but...I'll admit it: I cried. In my next class, Spanish. Luckily, I was in the back of the class, and my teacher was sitting behind me (Mr. Student Teacher was up), so I just played it off as being sick and tired, which I was last week. I hid my tears at first by putting my head down and blew my nose like any sick person, then I dried my eyes. But afterwards, just thinking about what happened depressed me and brought back the tears.

Here's why: I (apparently) cannot handle disappointing others. That was how I grew up. That's actually probably the reason why I work so hard...why I aim to get As and get upset when I get Bs and under. I grew up with my parents having high expectations of me...to be great. To just try. I had and have no problems with that. But looking back, I know that their pressuring me to be my best is the only thing that pushed me. People expected me to be smart and great and all, and I couldn't bear to disappoint them by failing. (Admittedly, I also just wanted to be the best) Whenever I feel that I let others down, it brings me down. So, when I felt that Mr. K was disappointed that I took the easy way out (I was/am lazy), it just...killed me inside.

I cried on the ride home today, too. I'm actually in danger right now, of crying. I just wanted to get that off my chest and out there. So... yeah.

That reminds me of a poem I wrote...iCry. Would you like me to post that? Would I want to post it? *Hmmm...* As long as there's no plagiarism. XD

Listening to: "Burning in the Skies" by Linkin Park
Currently plotting: that same essay I have to write...it may or may not be due tomorrow.
Trying to finish: my homework so I can sleep...

Two Posts in a Row--Giant Pinwheels and Idjits of Today

Now, to create a more festive and upbeat mood, I will go about my usual bloggy business. I must eat mole, so I want you to know that as I type I am eating delicious Mexican-sauce-nacho goodness. HA!!!! In thy faces!!

*Grabs mole bowl, sits in front of computer* Now, where were we? Ah! La música! (Listening to: "Rehearsal" by Natsuko Kondo [Kondo Natsuko]) Anyway, quote of the day and word of the day (which is more like "pronunciation of the day):

Quote of the day: "What happens to the flower when there's no light?"

Word of the day: schism (pronounced "skih-zm", NOT "shih-zm")

Hey! I am OK-ish today...ups and downs balance out (although I tend to make the ups seem even more great). BUT! I have MANY thoughts that I have miraculously maintained in mine mind, and they wantz to be sharéd. Let us begin.

[Edit: this one's long: here's a table of contents and a key to find certain things]:

• Idjits-§§§
• Pinwheels-∞∞∞
• Etc.-∆∆∆
• Quote/Word of day-ßßß

Tribute to Mr. Steve Jobs

This is a tribute post to Steve Jobs of the Apple© Company. Sadly enough, the head of the imagination department of the renowned technology company passed on today, October 5, 2011. He was so cool...in my opinion. I never knew the guy personally, but...he seems creative whenever I hear about him, so yeah.

I heard about his death as soon as I got home (literally; Significant Other told me before I got through the door), and later I heard the cause was related to some kind of cancer. SO told me that Steve Jobs was kinda like the visionary of Apple; he imagined and thought up the creative ideas for Apple, and he left the designs to the...um, design department. Also, he was co-founder of the company. Here is/are some link(s) about him...:

http://www.latimes.com/business/la-fi-steve-jobs-obit-20111006,0,7210103.story

"All about Steve Jobs Bio--Long"

and I found this touching and most appropriate: Remembering Steve Jobs

Erm...IDK. You all have Google and Bing and Yahoo and various other search engines, yes? Use them.

Anyway, I just wanted to take a moment to honor the one, only and AWESOMME Steve Jobs. May he rest in peace, and may he rock Heaven with his technological genius and creativity.

LONG LIVE STEVE JOBS!!